*Fringe Dweller, I have set up residence in a world of perpetual twilight. My best friend is called Death, he counsels me on not getting lost in the details of Life. He reminds me not to cling to the surface appearances, not to crave the illusions of inertia/stagnation when change is the only constant, while also warning me not to chase change, for in doing so I miss the very moment that is all that is truly changing, now changing to now. The most novel edge of creation is not located in time and space, but "Here > Now". I have grown very fond of our relation, so much so that he inspired me to venture into exploring Art in an attempt to translate those subtle conversations I have had with him into expression. Most importantly he was the one who proposed to me that I should cultivate a relationship with the Essence of Life itself for while he knew how to destroy limitations > delusions, she knew how to make things grow beyond those initial building blocks.*
"I was born 1990 in a strange peculiar realm known as Luxembourg , with the red in my veins containing the sweet blessings & bitter curses of both my Icelandic-Persian heritage, a mix that guaranteed fitting myself into any tidy box was impossible. Cultivating a deep sense in me of constantly dwelling at the fringe . While at times this was cause for a lot of inner friction and struggles especially early on, it also was a tremendous blessing in hindsight.
Following the passing of my father in 2010, Death became a subject of tremendous interest, to the point of literal obsession. For the next 10 years I dove head first into exploring, practicing, experimenting with many different forms of religious, spiritual, philosophical models and systems. The more I studied Death, the more I found Life paradoxically.
Death became a counselor & friend, and has since been whispering many beautiful but also challenging truths into my ears, which I have been attempting to integrate into my day to day living, not just mentally/conceptually, but fully digesting & understanding the deeper implications of those revelations and what it would mean to properly implement & embody them practically in Life.
From 2010 Onwards I began investing into learning a lot of different crafts, this was triggered by the dawning realization that most genuine spiritual > magical systems of antiquity, always highlighted to create one's tools if possible oneself. Everything I explored I did so auto-didactically. I taught myself:
- Silversmithing/Goldsmithing
- Distillation of Essential Oils.
- Perfumery
- Herbalism
- Music (Guitar, Traditional Instruments(Shruti Box, Singing Bowls, etc), Modern Instruments(Synths, MPC) & Music Production
- Apiculture
- The Art of Fermentation
- Sewing & Leather Crafting
- Painting & Drawing
Mystical Skills:
- Initiated Kambo Practitioner
- Alchemy
- Tarot
- Sound Journeying & Therapy.
For those wanting to taste the Beginnings of my Journey into the Arts & the Mystical, I have made available my first Self-Published Book, that I released back in 2019, which is a compilation of Poetry that I wrote following the passing of my Father in 2010 and the subsequent 4-5 years after that. It contains my own Poetry and is decorated with Quotations of Great Minds that accompanied & inspired me during that time.
The Poetry emerged as a form of channeling, while I naively thought to understand what I was writing back then, in hindsight I can tell that they were merely seeds that are still sprouting today.
I did a limited Print Run of around 100 Copies & Mostly Gifted them around. You can purchase an E-Book PDF version here if you wish to dive into those raw contemplative poems that emerged out of my visceral exploration of Death & the Mystical during those early Years.